I have been on a slow and long decent, one that has been a struggle and slippery slope towards the darkness.
As I have fought against this thing, the dark passenger grabbing and holding onto my life, the black dog snatching at my leg and holding me down, I have become progressively tired of this fight.
But once again like always, when this bought on movement towards the my ending, I look out towards those who know me and worry how they would cope if I was gone from this mortal realm, and then I choose to stay for another day or two.